A little bit about my posts the last couple of days. Eric and I really appreciate the positive outpouring of support from you all. I had been back and forth for a couple of months now as to whether or not I should post those things. They are not positive or hopeful thoughts to have. They are the sort of the dirty little secrets of infertility that no one wants to publicly talk about. I felt it was important to share them so that others going through this same thing know they are not alone. Please, however, do not take what I said yesterday to be how I feel all the time. Generally, I am a very easy going and hopeful person about our adoption.
I wanted to try a little different of a look today. I decided to wear my handmade shawl. This is a special piece to me. I didn’t make it, my grandmother did. I have had this shawl for 15 years. This was the last thing my grandmother made for me before she passed away when I was a sophomore in high school. While she never got to meet Eric or see the woman I have become I know she is watching over us on our journey.
LOVE YOU Sarah very much. you and Eric will become parents keep the positive attitude.